i like this words (:

aku boleh menangis nanti tapi aku akan menikmati setiap detik yang ada sekarang.
-Eliot-

Kau ambil keputusan dan kau tidak boleh menyesalinya

We can't cure the worLd of sorrows, but we can choose to live in joy .
-Koizora-

Aku tidak perlu membuat alasan untuk perbuatan yang tidak ku lakukan. aku tidak peduli kau mau percaya atau tidak.

aku lelah. aku hanya memberi jalan untuk satu tujuan. aku hanya berharap. Jika cinta itu tidak ada lagi dihatimu. Tetaplah jadi sahabatku.

Tersenyumlah maka dunia akan ikud tersenyum bersamamu. (:

aku tidak pernah memaksamu untuk memikirkanku. knp kau selalu memarahiku, apa kau selalu benar ? jika kau menyukai seseorang, sukai dia. jika tidak, ya tidak. kenapa harus begitu rumit ?

i fell in love with you the moment i saw you ^.^

apa yang harus ku lakukan agar kau benar benar melihatku.

watching time !

i wanna watch new moon, and persuade my friends to join and go together. but, some boys don't like watch new moon. so i was disappointed. i and olivia persuade them until thursday but they gave uncertain thing. so, i think i will persuade my daddy to pick up me go to movie. On thursday , i can't go to school, coz my daddy can't take my report, he had meeting in his office. i got call from my friend, said she was waiting in school, she wanna go. so, i am shock and panic. because i don't take a bath or have a breakfast yet . i call my other friend to tell her abot this news. haaaaa ~

so here we are, in the school. wanna watching with my friends, who they didn't wanna watch when i persude them yesterday. hmm but it's enough. we went to PV and watch comedy and horror movie. not new moon, because u know ya, boys don't like watch it. i guess, they are jeolous with EDWARD . hahaha. ^.^
had lunch woth my friends at hoka" bento . and took many photos in TOILET. hahaha.. we are narsis ! self confident is not wrong, you know ! ^.^

DECISION

12 -13TH Des 09

I went to Cibodas and stayed there for two days. that is my first Retreat, but it was exciting awfully. scenery, the air, and all there is beautiful. we praise the Lord together, many my friends was crying and some of them was collapse(included me >.<). i was feel blessed and i wanna join retreat like this again someday. two day one night is so fast ! but it was unforgettable moment to me. ^.^
you must join also !! ^.^

at there, i bought bracelets for me and my friend, so we wear same things. don't forget to bought some souvenir. in the bus, we was playing riddle and joking together. many profit i got when i join this activity, i got new friends, i was bleesed !, learn to know something new, etc. 

confused !!!

my church friend hates me i guess. why am i thinking like that ? when sunday, mudika paloti must went to trinitas because we had a choir job. when we wanna came home, we dicided to go PURI mall, wanna shopping and find present. we went to puri by motorcycle, so i and carol went there together. Mr.x said, he just tired suddenly. made all confused included me ! so, finally went to puri without him.
the next days, when monday i had meeting for christmas day party. mr.x came but he didn't came in, just call my friend and ask something and then go away . he didn't want to join. argh ! what happend with him ? thrusday is choir practice, he didn't want said to me anything.he came but he didn't want pick up my friend. i confused. he hates me or my friends ? make me crazy
i don't know how many problem happend in my life again.
not only that, i had problem at school also. what happend with me !? i just wanna be friend for everyone, but why it must happend, why it must like that ?
eventhough i still HOPE and positive thinking although it's hard to me. ):

shopping time !!

i went to palem Mall and bought many clothes in there. hmm, i bought 7 clothes. sooooo many and i wanna buy clothes again someday. hahaha.

any suggest what i  should bought ?

i suggest my friend to watch new moon, coz i don't watch it yet . how pity !! why new moon should premier on exams' days ? haaaa, wanna watch christmas carol also, it's look good movie.

now is holidays but until now, i don't know what should i do . i just wanna watch. hahaha

SYUTING SYUTING lol~

I've got assignment from my Indonesia's teacher. Our class must to made a film and must be finished in December. So, we made a film with title, DIA TANPA AKU. Romantic, sweet, sad film.

the story is like this , one day Lyla and Jeff went to the beach. Jeff likes Lyla, but Lyla didn't like him, Lyla see Jeff just as a best friend. And then Radit came to Lyla's school, he is a new student in there from Singapore. Radit likes Lyla and, Lyla likes Radit also. ^^ Short in time, Radit had a disease and die. So Radit persuaded Leon, his bestfriend to kept Lyla. sad ending T,T

the players,
Michelle who author and to be a good sutradara
Agung who manage all and to be cameramen
Claritia to be Lyla
Olivia and Me to be Lyla's Friends.
Nitto to ne Jeff
Tommy to be Radit
Hermawan to be Leon. and etc
hahhaha.

Nb : i'm so sorry, terrible sorry because i lost our letter T,T

visit cheese factory

Saturday, Nov 21th 2009 sains classes went to sukabumi, baros valley. we must arrive at school at 6 am, but it was getting late. many students came late. so, we left the school at 7 am. the trip was very exciting but wasting time also. we spent 4 hours in our trip. at 11 o'clock, we arrived at Baros, cheese factory. the first thing what we do is took photos together. hahaha ^^
the air at baros is very cool, i like that ^^ at the factory we drank yoghurt :D the taste was very delicious. after that, we was explained about how make cheeses. many question that must we do. and then, we had lunch together. not forgot to buy some souvenirs. I bought cheese chips. ^^ yummy (:
not only that, we went to cow's stable also. and then we learned about history of Baros. and the last (this's very exciting) is games ! we had a games.
at 4 pm, we went home. bus 2 was already go. but there was a problem that occur with bus 1. and then we must wait other students in bus 1. it was taking many times. so, we went home at 9 pm. and arrived at jakarta at 12 pm. hahaha ^^
that's unforgettable moment for me. i want to go somewhere again with them :D

lalalala ~ xD

I'm listening many songs for awhile. And i confused about who the singer i like. :D
David Archuleta has a good voice, M2M also like that. Ne Yo has a good song, i like Avril also . awfully confused. any suggestion ? xD
There are the lists of the songs which i listen . if u want to know and listen it, just search the lyric and mp3 in this link.
www.lyricsmode.com
www.4shared.com

There are the lists :
1. Akon - Beautiful
2. David Archuleta - Let's Talk About Love
3. Ne Yo - Single
4. Ne Yo - Mad
5. Avril Lavigne - Complicated
6. M2M - Don't Say You Love Me
7. Atomic - Eternal Flame
8. Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You
9. Mariah Carey - Hero
10. Akon - Right Know (na na na)

I hope you enjoy the songs.
That's enough for today i guess.
See you later :D

M2M - Pretty Boy

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall

You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

[BRIDGE]
Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

u can find another lyrics of song from this link
www.lyricsmode.com
www.metrolyrics.com
www.absolutelyrics.com

enjoy it ^^

Mariah Carey - Hero

There's a hero if you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.
There's an answer if you reach into your soul
and the sorrow that you know will melt away

And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.

It's a long road when you face the world alone,
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
You can find love if you search within yourself
and the emptiness you felt will disappear.

And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.

oh....Lord knows dreams are hard to follow,
But don't let anyone tear them away.
Hold on, there will be tomorrow,
In time you'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you
that a hero lies in ... you
mmmm that a hero lies in.....you.

the good one. u should to listen it.

new baby, NEW BROTHER

Sep 17th 09, my mom has a son.. so i have one little sister (2 years ) and one little brother ( 1 month ). So difficult to me to arrange all. Now, I seldom to play computer or with my friends, seldom , seldom seldom . arghh ~ i'm freaking out ! I don't have any idea to do all.. even less, my little sister is active and energetic awfully... but i think, my sister is cute also. hehe (:

DUFAN I'M COMING !!

Holiday is coming ! This holiday until 1st oct. yummy ! I and my friends wanna go to DUFAN ! It'll be exciting indeed. We wanna go on Monday. I hope there ll be not crowded. So, We can played all of them. Eventually, I can spend my holiday with my friends. hhaha.

I didn't meet with my friends, Natasha. She already went to Cinna. It's very disappointing ):

other note is After holiday ended, 5th Oct I must face mid-term examination. Oh My God ==a Lazy to study, expecially study sains. many topic in there. huekk ~

Autumn in Paris Synopsis

Autumn in Paris
Ilana Tan

Tara Dupont likes Paris and Autumn. She thinks had have all the things in her life... until she meet Tatsuya Fujisawa who difficult person to understand and always raise her anxious from the first time when she met him.

Tatsuya Fujisawa hates Paris and Autumn. He came to Paris for looking for the person who broke his life. But he didn't know that He will likes Tara Dupont, a girl who very fussy but calm his soul and his mind... changed his world indeed.

Tara and Tatsuya didn't know indeed about thread who connect them with their old time, there was a secret where break every hope, feel, and convinced. When the truth revealed, opened also whats the meaning of hopeless... meaning of sadness...the truth also so hurt until push one of them wanna finished the life.

Seandainya masih ada harapan__sekecil apa pun__untuk mengubah kenyataan, ia bersedia menggantungkan seluruh hidupny pada harapan itu....

8...9...10...UDAH BELOM?! synopsis

When still children, Nesya and Vino were best friend. When they played hide and seek and Nesya hide, Vino went to home indeed and not came back and appear again. Alone and Scared, Nesya was hiding until she seeked by Mike.

Ten years later, Vino and Nesya met again. Vino still remembered Nesya, but Nesya couldn't remember Vino again. Yeah, Two months ago Nesya had an accident with Mike, her boyfriend die and Nesya lost her memories.

Vino loves Nesya and wanna help Nesya to remember her old memories. But Vino know that Nesya is Mike's boyfriend, his friend, Vino doesn't want Nesya know about it indeed. Vino wanna Nesya only loves him, without remember her memories of Mike.

A long time ago, when Vino left Nesya, Mike who the first person find Nesya, will Vino who spend his time with Nesya ?

Meeting with my old friend

humpff ~
I have one old best friend named is Natasha. I met first with her when I sat in JHS in Bethel. But when My grade was 9, she had been go to Cinna.
And now she is in holiday and we wanna meet and spend one day together. She said that we meet at Kelapa Gading mall better another, but I don't because it's so far for me. I said at Emporium better that one. And finally we deal it. At Emporium, Sunday ^^. We wanna go to movie, shopping, take many pictures, photo box, eating and that time, I never forget it never and ever. hahaha ~
I hope tomorrow will be a nice day to hang out with her. ^^

My Hope

I have many things that I want to do. I hope that I can do all. I hope the best thing happen in my life.
i want to be loved by someone whom i love. My God, give me the best way. MySpace src="http://www.laymark.com/i/o/82.gif" border=0>
Hmm, several days again my brother will born.. (:
I am happy but sad also. Happy for I have brother now but I am absolutely sad because I haven't many times to hang out or play or something like that. I should to keep my sister and brother. It's very exhausted. God, give me a strength also. (x

Audition, sucks !

yesterday, (08/07) in my school had an audition to finding several new members to join ENGLISH CLUB. I was a member, we were 19 members. There was Oral and Writing test to join this Club. This Club is very exclusive. ((: There were 42 students registered.
This day was very disgusting and sucks. Ms.X, I regard her as my friend. But she made me sad and wanted to cry. She is a lier who said to everyone that the mistakes I do. I almost never believed that.
Now , I know her attitude and personality. I don't believe her never and ever.

Winter in Tokyo synopsis

Winter in Tokyo

Ilana Tan

Keiko about Kazuto

My new neighbour, Nishimura Kazuto, came to Tokyo for finding a new different environment. That's he said, but my opinion that the reason is more than that. He is a kind person, gratify, and can be trusted.
slow by slower-might be since that Chrism's Night-I started seeing him with different method. And since that moment also, I felt so difficult to imaging life without him.

Kazuto about Keiko

From beginning, I felt already that there something is interesting from Ishida Keiko. Everything will feel so amenities if she was here. Everything will be fine if she here. I hope she can stop thinking about that man and start to see me. Because life without her is no life at all.

They first meet when Winter in Tokyo. For month by month, the new feeling appear. Then everything is change when one day one of them wake up and not remember at all for everything which happened in the last month, included the person who had to be a important part in his life.
 

This is mellow story. I like this novel awfully. ^^
I suggestion, you should to read it if you like a mellow stories. That is a good one.

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call lyric

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call

Waiting for your call, I'm sick
call, I'm angry
call, I'm desperate for your voice.
I'm listening to the song we used to sing in the car.
Do you remember, butterfly, early summer?
It's playing on repeat...
Just like when we would meet.

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine.
Stay with me tonight.

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh.
I am feeling so ambitious; you and me, flesh to flesh.
cause every breath that you will take
while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes.
What's your fantasy?
What's your, what's your, what's your, what's your...

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine.
Stay with me tonight.

And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment
makes me want to come back home.
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have.)
'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine.
Stay with me tonight

you can find it in :
[ Your Call Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]
My fav song ^^ listen it please. thankz ~

my life in XI Sains

I have new friend in my class. She is Suryanti from bagan siapi", so far ~ She is clever. She is very shy, might be it happens because she is a new student in my school.
Not only that, I can sociable with my friends. They can understand me. And my church, I can sociable too. I can solve my problems with my friend. I have one big problem, it makes me insane. ~.~ Someone who is in my church always make me crazy. how pity.. ): Willy nilly, I must be patient. But now, I don't care about it again. hihihi ^^
Hmm, furthermore I have one person who i like. (: He isn't so smart. He is funny and kind person although he always teases me ): I wonder about him obviously.

ohh, I just forget it.
My English teacher is Mam Yulia. She is smart and good looking. Im happy to have teacher like her.. Het method of teaching is good. Im not boring if she is teaching me. hhaha xD

Utada Hikaru - Stay Gold lyric

Utada Hikaru – Stay Gold

* Daisuki dakara zutto
Nannimo shinpai iranaiwa
My Darling, Stay Gold
Mujakini waratte kudasaina
Itsumademo…

Anata no hitomi no
Oku ni hisomu shounen
Watashi no honnou kusugutte yamanai

Aah douka sonomama
Good Luck

Kanashii koto ha kitto
Konosakinimo ippai aruwa
My Darling, Stay Gold
Kizutsuku koto mo daijidakara
* Repeat

Shuushoku mo kimatte
Asondebakari irarenaine
Otona no joushiki ya chie mi
Ni tsukeru no mo ii

Aah Kyou ha konomama
Good Night

Kawariyuku no ga
Hito no kokoro no tsune dato iimasuga
Nee DAARIN Your SoulYasashiku kagayaki tsuzukeruwa
* Repeat

Daisuki dakara zutto
Nannimo shinpai iranaiwa
My Darling, Stay Gold
Mujakini waratte iraretara
Itsunohimo…


Translation

* Because I love you
You don’t have to worry about anything
My Darling, Stay Gold
Please smile innocentlyForever…

The young boy hidden
Deep within your eyes
Continues to entice my instincts

Aah somehow, let it continue
Good Luck

There will most likely continue to be
Sad things ahead of us
My Darling, Stay Gold
Because even getting hurt is important
* Repeat

Figured out a job
We can’t continue playing around forever
Sometimes it’s good to learn
Adult intelligence and common sense

Aah Tonight, let’s just say
Good Night

They say change is
A fundamental part of the human heart
But Darling, Your Soul
Will continue to shine kindly
* Repeat

Because I love youYou don’t have to worry about anything
My Darling, Stay Gold
If I can keep smiling innocently
Each and every day…

WHO AM I ?

As a modern girl like now , u should to

have a charming face, smooth skin, beautiful dress, many accessories, and all expensive things like that.

If u don't have one of them, u'll feel not good looking. u think about that and be up set coz of it. Where & who is the prefect in this world ? TELL ME !

NOBODY IS PREFECT !

Sometimes, u're jealous with ur friends who have all that matters. u're sad coz of it. u envy !

i used to not have all that even though i always have many friends. i can sociable easily. But now, when i go to my new school (High School ), i feel that they underestimate me. I don't have good things and what's a matter for that ? I wanna have a TRUE FRIEND !

I wanna learning to grateful with what I have now. Even though I'm not good person. But I'm sure, I'm the good one person in God's eyes.

Hiahaa ~
Today is d first time begins to study in school again. I've joined to sains class, only one class of sains. It's no matter if I have one class with my friends. There re so many new students in my scholl. I have new friend in my class. That is a beautiful girl. She is very shy, i guess. I don't speak with her yet. Probably , tommorow i'll do it. haha (x

There re some teacher moved to another school. I don't know what we call it, but some people said that "Mutilasi" Hahaha I don't understand.
So miss them. I miss Mrs. Dahlia. She has been teaching me for 1 year only. She has a good method of teaching, i like it. Not only Mrs. Dahlia, but also Mr. Rudi and Mrs. Masda. I'll really miss them all (:

SMILE DRAMA ( スマイル )

Synopsis

Hayakawa Vito has a Filipino father and a Japanese mother, but he was born and raised in Japan and has never visited the Philippines. The ever-smiling Vito works at Machimura Foods during the day, and at night, he works a part-time job trying to make his dreams come true. One day during an incident at a bookstore, he meets a girl named Mishima Hana, who lost her ability to speak due to an accident. But even though she can't speak, Vito is drawn to her beautiful smile. However, Vito becomes wrongly suspected by the police for a crime, and after meeting the lawyer Kazuma, the issue begins to grow... Together, Vito, Hana, and Kazuma will go through challenging times and have to overcome many obstacles.

There is Aragaki Yui. I like her voice, so calm (:

My wish

I wanna buy new mobile, coz my mobile now is broken. TT
Therefor, i save my money. Month by month, my saving is enough. But not to buy a HP which i want.
I can't send a message, can't call, can't listen d music from my mobile,, hxhx
what should i do ? I told that to my Daddy, and he didn't show anything. I want, he help me to buy Hp which i want one.
hhehe (: no matter how i difficult to call my friend, no matter if i can't send messages. I'll try my best to save until i can buy it..
please support me. hhihihi (:

K - Only Human lyric

I like this song very much ..
Please enjoy this song ..


K- Only Human

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru toiu yo

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
Tadori tsuku sono saki ni wa
Nani ga bokura wo matteru?

Nigeru tame ja naku yume ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazusa tooi natsu no ano hi

Ashita sae mieta nara tame iki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae he susume

Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni
Shiawase ga matsu toiu yo
Boku wa mada sagashite iru
Kisetsu hazure no himawari

Kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba
Akai tsume ato ni namida kirari ochiru

Kodoku ni mo nareta nara
Tsuki akari tayori ni
Hane naki tsubasa de tobi tatou
Motto mae he susume

Amagumo ga kireta nara
Nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga oshiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae he susume

Translate
On the opposite coast of sadness
Is something called a smile

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we’re waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away
We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day

If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on

In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring

The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall

Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further

As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on


I like this song, this drama (1 liter of tears)
u should to watch it (:

I seldom to grateful with what i have
after watch this drama, i know that im very fortunate.
this an opportunity to change my step.

do u ever see four-leaf-clover ?
i wanna find it. Many people said that it takes a miracle, good fortune. hhaha (x
if u ever see, let's me know. do u have a good fortune ? (: