confused !!!

my church friend hates me i guess. why am i thinking like that ? when sunday, mudika paloti must went to trinitas because we had a choir job. when we wanna came home, we dicided to go PURI mall, wanna shopping and find present. we went to puri by motorcycle, so i and carol went there together. Mr.x said, he just tired suddenly. made all confused included me ! so, finally went to puri without him.
the next days, when monday i had meeting for christmas day party. mr.x came but he didn't came in, just call my friend and ask something and then go away . he didn't want to join. argh ! what happend with him ? thrusday is choir practice, he didn't want said to me anything.he came but he didn't want pick up my friend. i confused. he hates me or my friends ? make me crazy
i don't know how many problem happend in my life again.
not only that, i had problem at school also. what happend with me !? i just wanna be friend for everyone, but why it must happend, why it must like that ?
eventhough i still HOPE and positive thinking although it's hard to me. ):